|It's days like these when I would love|
to see this posted up in the ladies
washroom....what a great idea!
Something's wrong. I can't put my finger on it but I'm not right in the head (and haven't been for a few days now). I just put my workout gear on, stood on the elliptical trainer for about 5 minutes and got off only to lay down on the cold tile and fall asleep. If I had any less energy I would be moving backwards.
I haven't had a good night's sleep in a week now. I go to bed tired but lay awake for hours. I even barked back at the neighbour's dog the other night....and never heard from him again (I hope he's okay). This isn't like me, I used to take great pride in my ability to sleep 8 hours a night. Now, I'm lucky if I get 4 good ones. Today, I found myself sitting in the ladies room again with my head in my lap (yes, I'm that flexible...no not really)....just sitting. I am sensing a level of frustration higher than my usual and I have less patience for stupid people (just kidding....he he he). At this moment in time...I just don't give a crap.
I know myself enough to understand that there's something looming under my surely and negative demeanor but I can't figure out what. I don't have any stressors at work; I love my job. I am happy with my man friend; although I wouldn't mind a few uninterrupted days together on sandy beach with a Margarita in one hand and Bahama Momma in the other. Nope...can't think of a thing. But what I wouldn't give for a glass of my favorite red wine and a big plate of nachos (swimming in melted cheese). In fact, it wouldn't be that hard to make a pit stop at the local grocery story en route home tonite and share my drive home with my favorite colourful couple....M and M.
Does anyone else relate to this....anyone? If I were sick, I could easily go home to bed and do what it takes to get better. If I were injured I could rest, ice, compress, and elevate...but this is just too stupid and pointless (of course, I realize it isn't...hence my blog post today). Emotions can really kick the crap out of us at times. They can influence how we view the world and act in it. They can motivate us to eat like crap or to wear our seat belt. They spread like a super bug to everyone else and can really make a difference to the space we all share. More importantly, they can throw a wrench in your meal and exercise plans. If you think about it, emotions really are in control of a lot of our health behaviour. So how does one "control" their emotions? (at this moment, I haven't got an answer for that....I was sincerely asking the question)
Could it be hormonal? Possibly. Could it be the weather (another rainy and cloudy spring)? I wouldn't doubt it. Could it be chronic boredom (small towns suck in bad weather)? Naaaaaah.....It could be quite possible that I'm simply deficient in sugar, fat, and icing.
|Tomorrow morning before I leave the bed, I will repeat this over and over to myself. With my luck, I'll just end up with a brutal craving for fries.....(I know...bad attitude).|
More to follow...