vastus medialis (media quad) and it may be up to 12 weeks until I get back at it. All the biking plans I had made and the plans to get out walking, hiking, running during the summer may be changing if this diagnosis is true. My life is over! I'm going to turn to mush! I'm going to loose every once of fitness I had!
....at least that is what I thought on the drive home during my emotional breakdown.
So I'm hobbling around and haven't exercised for over a week now. It is one thing to choose not to exercise but another altogether to be forced not to exercise. Getting on my bike is the only thing I can think of now. It does give me time to think, however, and I got to thinking about identity. We all have one. Whether we identify with our job, our role in the community, in a family, our finances, our house/car, and our bodies, we all have and hold an identity.
Those that identify with their beauty, for example, may have a very hard time loosing those looks through aging. Those that identify with their sport, have a hard time when they can't play (due to injury). Those that have never had a weight "problem" and find themselves gaining weight, may have a harder time readjusting to a lifestyle focused on weight "management".
No matter what you identify with, it is important to be aware of how you define yourself. Nothing stays the same; eventually things change, leave, disappear. You are not your bank account, your partner, your fitness level, and even your body, your social status. Remove all those identifiers and who are you? If you can't answer this question, perhaps now would be a good time to think about it (before it is too late). I know I will be spending 8 - 12 weeks doing just that.